He used to be the sunshine in my life.
Every morning, Calvin would break through the front door like he’d just been shot from a cannon–rounding up the dog for a bye-bye, his plastic dino waving to me to leave before hitting the driveway for the bus stop. He was six, but already possessed this energy that made you forget you had coffee. And that grin … that could brighten up the whole neighborhood.
But something changed.
It started slowly. A missed smile here. A mumbled “good morning” there. Then there were the mornings where he didn’t want to put on his shoes. The days when he claimed his tummy hurt but had no idea why. The nights he couldn’t fall asleep and wanted to leave the light on the hallway. And then, which is the worst thing, he stopped drawing.
My boy loved to draw. He once created an entire zoo in the wall of the guest room with washable markers. But now his papers were blank. Or worse – black and gray swirls scribbled over. Torn. Crumpled.
I didn’t want to overreact. Perhaps it was a phase. Maybe he was tired. But my intuition said otherwise.
On that morning, I chose to walk him all the way to the bus. Typically I’d be shaking my hands from the porch, as always. That day, however, I hung close, observing him grip the straps of his small backpack as if it may take off. He did not wave to the driver. He did not look at other children. When the bus doors opened with that signature hydraulic hiss, he broke touch with reality, as if the steps were hot lava.
“Go on, sweetheart,” I whispered. “You’re okay.”
He turned his head up at me with foggy eyes and pursed lips and nodded once then got on board.
Then I saw it.
He attempted to sit at the front but a child some seats down behind him said something I missed. I saw the smirk. I saw the other kid nudge his friend and indicate. Calvin reached for the brim of his cap and pushed it down. He faced the window and, before he curled his knees up, I had seen his sleeve brush across his cheek.
Tears.
Then came something, which I didn’t expect.
The bus didn’t move.
Miss Carmen, the driver whom we’ve had since kindergarten, extended her arm rearwards one of her hands still on the wheel while the other one, like a safety net, stretched to the back. She didn’t say anything. She just reached.
Calvin stared at it for a second then grabbed it as if he was drowning.
And she held on. A long time went by—engine humming, other kids silent now—and she just remained so, her hand in his. Not rushing. Not scolding. Just holding.
The bus finally rolled away. And I stood there, my heart tearing itself apart in a dozen directions.
That afternoon, she did not simply deliver Calvin off.
She stopped the bus, switched off the engine and got off with a purpose – a sort of purpose I hadn’t seen before. She didn’t smile or wave. She did not grab her clipboard. Rather, she marched directly towards the crowd of parents who were standing around the corner – including myself – and stared us both in the face.
Her voice wasn’t loud. But it didn’t have to be so.
“Some of your kids are hurting people,” she stated.
A few parents blinked. Others were looking around as though she could not be speaking to them.
“I just want to come across as a fresh face,” she added. “But I am here to tell you that what’s going on on that bus is not right. And I’ve seen enough.”
One dad scoffed. “Are you serious? Kids tease. That’s what they do.”
Miss Carmen didn’t flinch. “Teasing? That’s when a child comments that your shirt is joking. This is targeting. Intimidating. Scaring such child, he cries the morning before school. You want to tell me that’s just kids being kids?”
There was a silence. Thick. Uncomfortable.
Then she turned to me. I have observed your son attempting to vanish into his seat for three weeks. I observed him falling due to a tripping incident on the aisle last Thursday. I overheard one boy refer to him as ‘freak’ yesterday. And nobody said a word.”
I felt something swell in my throat maybe shame. Or guilt that I had not known. That I hadn’t done more.
She then said what I will never forget.
“And here is our action plan: You talk to your kids. I’ll talk to the too. And we are going to fix this. Not tomorrow. Today. Or I start naming names. And believe me, I have a list.
Then she turned, she got back on the bus and hightailed it like nothing had happened.
The rest of that afternoon I was on the phone – to the school, Calvin’s teacher, the guidance counselor. That night, I told my son that I really wanted to know what was happening.
And he told me.
Talking about the boys at the back who gave him names. Speaking of a girl who stole his hat and threw it out the window. About how he ceased to draw when they told him that his pictures are “creepy” and “just baby stuff”.
I had the feeling that I was the worst mother in the world.
But things changed after that day.
The school intervened, parents became involved. Apologies were offered; some real and some rehearsed but we did try. Calvin received a permanent transfer to the front of the bus. Miss Carmen informed him that it was the VIP section. She even placed a small “Reserved” sign on his seat.
Two weeks hence, there he was at the kitchen table with his markers out – drawing a rocket ship. Its front end had a bus driver, who guided it through space. And a boy in the front seat, grinning at the window.
Months passed. The tears stopped. The light came back.
And then one Friday morning, I happened to hear so something that causes me to stop in the hallway.
Calvin was speaking to a new kid at the bus stop. The boy had a nervous look – from foot to foot, with a backpack too large for his person. I heard Calvin ask, “Hey, wanna sit with me up front? It’s the best seat.”
The kid smiled, nodded. And literally into that boat, they climbed up.
The following week I wrote a letter to Miss Carmen. A real one. With ink and paper.
I explained to her what that moment meant to me. How much I owed her. How much Calvin owed her. What the whole course of his tiny life was altered when she did what none of the others would have dared – when she extended her own hand.
She wrote back in slanted cursive.
“At times the grownups forget that backpacks can be heavy once you carry more than books”.
I still have that note in my purse. It reminds me that sometimes, kindness is quiet and not flashy. Sometimes, it is merely a hand reaching back.
And now I want to ask you: If you have seen someone who is struggling, would you extend your hand to him/her? Or would you just sit there in silence hoping that someone else will?
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