It’s hard to imagine doing another memorial post; the memory of the previous one is still nearby. Just as I was approaching the elliptical in my gym, I got a text from my friend reading: “Robin Williams died. OMG.”
Next, I gazed up from below at the TVs above the gear, and there he was on screen, together with a text that meant nothing to me: ‘Robin Williams Dead at 63 in apparent suicide.’
My heart felt very low.
Still, more than four hours after hearing the news, and it still hasn’t really settled. How is it possible that a man who brought happiness and laughter to so many, could not even find a reason to be happy for himself? This was also the person who made his friend and schoolmate Christopher Reeve laugh for the first time after his accident. It was because of him that Reeve found the strength to keep living in the toughest times. Williams remained the comedic distraction that helped Steven Spielberg boost the morale of his cast in Schindler’s List [per IMDb]. Here you see a photo of the two at People’s Choice Awards in 1979, courtesy of Biography.com.
I am not an expert on depression, so I don’t pretend to know how it can overpower anyone, including those we wrongly think live a carefree life. Growing up, I realized that my mother, despite her mental disorder, did not give signs of mental illness to those outside the family. She was cheerful, full of life, and always seemed to be in complete control of her life. To be honest, only the individual can truly understand what is happening inside of them. No one. At times, the person themselves is not aware… Since Mr Williams was always in the spotlight, facing addiction must have been even harder for him.
I just wanted to mention for a moment how exceptionally talented he is… in every way, he’s totally unique. The very first chance I had to see him wasn’t really a comedy role, but his sense of humor was very present. It was in Dead Poets Society where he played English teacher John Keating, who ignited the students’ passion for poetry and urged them to act with intention. Carpe Diem! I understood the meaning behind the word before I understood its definition. It’s quite strange to realize that he has been through a similar loss as one of his students from the movie.
As I stop to think about his passing just now… I frequently watched many of his movie appearances and interviews, often feeling sad and happy at the same time because of his funny and loving behavior. It’s impossible for me to exactly say how many of his films I like best: Mrs Doubtfire, Nine Months, What Dreams May Come, The Birdcage, Good Will Hunting, and even Insomnia.
Throughout his career of more than a hundred different projects, including TV and movie voice roles, he always seemed lively. Even after heart surgery and many rehab sessions, when he’s in a movie, he’s still acting at his best. His family and friends will surely miss him. Most definitely, I admire the impactful roles Mr. Williams played, which were enjoyed by fans and people who simply watch movies.
I am sad for the family of Eric E. Williams. If it is okay, I will pray for them.
